Monday, September 28, 2009
why did we have to wait?

"while I'm waiting, I will serve you while I'm waiting, I will worship while I'm waiting , I will not faint , I'll be running the race, even while I wait" John Waller.
I can't say how many times I have cried while singing this song, it talks about being patient , confident, obedient, peaceful, hopeful and bold and while I can not say we were all those things still we waited.
So Why? why the wait? why over 3 years? why did she sit there alone waiting for us, we were right here the whole time.I wish I could say after all these times of waiting we have it all figured out. Truth is we do not. I have so many questions to ask God when I see him, why didn't my mom live 47 more days to see our first daughter , why didn't I get pregnant when we wanted so she could have seen them all? why did a mother have to give her tiny baby girl up and why did it take her 8 years to get to us? why now that we finally have her can't I be free of pain to care for my kids the way I wish I could?
" I waited patiently for the LORD. He turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the sticky mud.He set me on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many people will see this and worship him. Then they will trust the LORD." psalms 40:1-3.
He has put a new song in our mouth our wait is over and as you see those big brown eyes in the photo above I hope you hear our praise to God. It is because of Him we loved an orphan even before we knew her name, because of Him she was chosen for us, His grace brought her to us. I hope you will see and hear our worship and trust Him as we do!
This one thing we do know for sure, our God is in control of this horribly sinful world . we do not understand it or Him, Thank goodness or He wouldn't be any smarter than we are! What do we do now that this wait is over? well like the song says worship and serve. We are really nothing special just a couple who selfishly wanted another girl. So why do we have a life of waiting, I don't know but I do know who does and we will keep on trusting Him.
the rest of spring hill fun
















brookes baby shower (this was over a week ago)



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